24 October 2007

Checking back into life....

Greetings all. I have so many apologies I need to make and they will be made individually and I'm confident everyone who is getting one will understand. Secondly, I am so happy to say that I love my life right now and I think it's finally going in a direction that I like. I'm also not over thinking life and for the first time I'm following not only my brain but also my heart.

I really am not sure where to start, so I will start with the present and work back to August over the next few posts.

I met someone, well, I reconnected with someone. His name is Pete This happened totally out of the blue and at bad times for both of us. He's wonderful. I've known him for 10 years and have recently come to find out after we started dating again that he's been in love with me for the last 7 years. Apparently I was the last to find this out as his sister, mother, family and friends have all confirmed this for me. This is the man who told me he would wait 4 years for me when I was leaving for college and my response was, "for what?" Luckily things have worked out in our favor. For the first time in 7 years we are both single at the same time. Not to say things aren't complicated. I live in NYC and he has a 3 month old.

Surprisingly enough though friends and family are being supportive. I do have to say that I'm so head over heals and the butterflies are a feeling I've never experienced before.

I don't have much to update in the way of stitching. CATS was fantastic and such a great time. It was wonderful to meet Dawn and Crystal and spend time with Angi. I haven't put in a stitch since I left. There are many things up in the air right now in my life. Some things I don't want to yet go into on my blog as I'm not sure who reads it and I need to see how things pan out.

Thank you so much to those of you who have emailed or sent notes out of concern. They really meant a lot to me. I will get to all the emails I need respond to within the next week. I'm not traveling this weekend so I should have time.

Love to you all and you have been in my thoughts and prayers. Since it's going to be difficult to check back in, I'm going to start with the newest of everyone's posts and work from there.

23 August 2007

"Hey, Let's give a cheer, Carolina is here..."

The Fighting Gamecocks lead the way. Who gives a care, If the going gets tough,And when it is rough, that's when the 'Cocks get going. Hail to our colors of garnet and black, in Carolina pride have we. So, go Gamecocks go - FIGHT! Drive for the goal - FIGHT! USC will win today - GO COCKS! So, let's give a cheer, Carolina is here. The Fighting Gamecocks All The Way!

So I'm back. I haven't actually been gone all this time, the trip to Cape May was only Friday, Saturday and Sunday of last week. I returned to NYC last Tuesday. The trip was fantastic, exactly what I needed. A small group of great friends who are very good at making sure fun is always being had. There was a little too much alcohol, too much food, too much trivial pursuit and other board and card games. We didn't go to the beach on Saturday because it was overcast - but the house has the most wonderful back porch and the weather was grand. It was on the chilly side so we all sat around and curled up - napping on and off - playing games on and off and reading trashy celeb gossip magazines! Sunday was BEAUTIFUL so we went to the beach - after coffee (lots of coffee). Both Friday and Saturday I didn't get to sleep before 3am and was up by 9am each morning. The water was perfect. At around 7pm we said our goodbyes and I headed back to Delaware. This gave me the opportunity to catch up with a friend who I had lost touch with over the last 5 years.

So I took Monday off - I think the weekend caught up with me. I had a busy but good week at work and then went out on Thursday and partied like a rock star with my new roommate who just moved in last week. It was really nice to go out with someone who really knows nothing about you and has no expectations. (**Normally this behavior happens once in a blue moon. I have to say it was a fun evening). So back in bed at 3:30am (on a work day) and needless to say - I called out. I supposed when you are given as many days as we are they might as well be put to use sometimes.

On a more painful note - it seems my migraines have returned. I'm doing what I can to deal with them and my doctors are doing what they can to figure them out. Hopefully I'm not in the same boat as Karen and it's not tannins. I might die.

So this past weekend was, well interesting. My great aunt is in town for a month, staying with my mom, my cousin and her 3 year old were visiting and well in general it was chaos. We are dealing with some issues with Nana - none health related. She's already up and walking with just a cane - simply amazing really. I read my April blog and it really is a miracle and I have no doubt her own religious beliefs and all the thoughts and prayers here have had MUCH to do with her recovery. So there was the drama of having 4 generations of women (yes all men marry in to my family) with very strong and stubborn personalities under the same roof. Needless to say I took Pai (the 3 year old) on a walk to the creek and we threw stones in the creek. We also went on an adventure across the HUGE field and through the woods. She did have her Dora map to lead us in the right direction. So Saturday was mainly a family day. Saturday evening I went over to the old friend's house mentioned earlier. I'm not sure what's going on here but I'm sure you'll be hearing more about him in the future and I'll leave it at that. Although he doesn't know about this blog and I'm sure I'll be hashing through things on here in the future. I did also get to see his family - his sister just had a baby a month ago so I was in seventh heaven - I do love babies!!

Sunday was a BBQ at Nicole's parent's house as she and her brother and some other family members were in town. We had a great time as always and as always a little drama. Just to put all minds at ease - at least a little bit - I am not at all depressed. There are some things I am not 100% happy with in my life but I'm taking steps to figure out how to change those things.

This week has been crazy, just a little over whelming. Work is crazy busy. My roommate is all moved in. Last night I put together a new bookcase that I love but it took 4 hours. It was supposed to take 2 people to put together. I did it all by myself!! I'm actually staying home by myself all weekend, I have stitching and crocheting planned and a few errands but that is it. Other than that I want to organize things in my apartment.

I've also joined a fall slow pitch softball league at home in Delaware on Sundays for 6 weeks. I've already said I can't make every game - that was part of the agreement but it will be a lot of fun!

Stitching news: Only have put stitches into Coffee Menu! Pics soon as it's almost done!!

By the way, the biggest news is: college football season starts in 9 days! I will be watching as many games as possible that are Carolina games. I'm a huge South Carolina fan as it's my alma mater. I am also a HUGE Eagles fan so that's what Saturdays and Sundays will be for me.

08 August 2007

"RIBBET, RIBBET, RIBBET...."

Yes, you've heard right, those dreaded frogs visited me tonight. If you look below I realized I did Daisy's front leg in the wrong color. I don't even have DMC 948! Whoops. It could be worse. It was very quick to stitch her leg. I have her skirt completely finished and I'm moving up. I'll be doing my first set of wings.

I'm not sure if I'll get to post a pic before I leave for the weekend. I'm heading to Cape May, NJ with friends from high school. It should be a fun weekend and hopefully not too out of control. I won't have my computer with me so I won't read blogs or emails from Friday-Monday. This will only be my second trip to the beach this year. That is so sad. I love the ocean.

Anywho, hope everyone is well. Thank you so much for the comments and welcome to the new people who have found their way here!!

"Last night I dreamt of San Pedro..."

Just like I'd never gone, I knew the song - a young girl with eyes like the desert. It all seems like yesterday, not far away. Tropical the island breeze, all of nature wild and free, this is where I long to be -- La Isla Bonita. And when the samba played - the sun would set so high, ring through my ears and sting my eyes your Spanish lullaby." - Madonna

OH my goodness, today was well one of those days. For those of you who haven't read the newsy sites or watched the news this morning - well if you don't read national news, apparently NYC is not at all prepared for disaster. A tornado touched down in Brooklyn and storms caused flooding. It's 90+ degrees outside and the news told me the subway was just slow and delayed. Ok no biggie. They did say to give it an hour. So I left at 8:40, I was actually on track to be on time to work (a rarity) and with this delay that was no longer happening. I hopped on the crosstown bus that was delays (no idea why) and finally got across town to my subway at 9:15am. They were directing people out of the subways - that's right they've stopped running.

So I look down the street and realize there are 150+ people waiting for a bus. There's no way so I jump out and join the hoards of people getting cabs. Not a problem until people start getting selfish and not sharing cabs with others. Really people this is ridiculous. So I start walking at 9:30 and finally got to work at 11:30. I walked 40+ blocks and a few avenues. I found a cab finally and a nice man and I shared it and he paid since he had much farther to go.

I'm now cooling off a bit and drinking more water. It could have been worse, some people had 4 hour commutes this morning. Have a great day!!

05 August 2007

"Been a lot that I've been through. I cried a tear a time or two...."

"Baby, you know I cried some over you, yeah. Had my heart kicked to the ground, love ripped me up and tore me down, baby. But that ain't enough to break me cuz I'll rise above it and I'll pick myself up and I'll dust the pain off my heart. Been alot of tears stained nights I thought the tears were here for life, baby. The hurt came on and held on tight, yeah, took a chance, I took a fall. Love broke my heart and shattered all my dreams, but I won't be down on my knees cuz I'll rise above it and I'll pick myself up and I'll shake the rain out of my heart. Gonna pick my heart up! Take my life back! Shake the hurt away, pull myself together, put the pieces back in place. I learned love's so hard - love left my soul scarred. I was shattered inside. And I'll be alright and I'll love again and the wounds will mend. I'm bruised but not broken and the pain will fade. I'll get back on my feet - it's not the end of me. My heart is still open - I'm bruised but not broken." - Joss Stone

First I have to thank all of you that comment on my blog. I love the comments so much. I also got a couple of emails in response to not having songs on my blog anymore. I didn't realize that anyone noticed or that anyone else enjoyed it. I love them, so that's why I have them. Well some of you sent me some songs that made you think of me. Thanks to each of you. Michele's choice of song was a song I hadn't heard and it so perfectly describes how I feel right now. Thanks Michele!!

Also since I'm on the topic of Michele - check out her blog and the new LHN design! I love it. I will buy it.

So here are stitchy updates:

Coffee Menu




















Cirque des Cercles
















Daisy by Mira




















And one last thing. Just to keep myself accountable I'm going to be tracking stuff on my blog. Hopefully it won't bore people. If it does, don't read the ends of my blog.

Workout this week:
Monday: 30 mins cardio
Tuesday: 45 mins weight training/personal trainer
Sunday: 45 mins cardio

I'm so happy I started blogging.